whatever things

boring day in the office

2009-10-21T01:28:00.000-07:00

the weather in the philippines is getting bitchier and bitchier by the minute... i hate the weather here... while other countries are experiencing the cold autmn breeze.. were stuck with this never ending changing weather... stupid green house effect is really pissing me off... >_

anyway... i just got my paycheck yesterday.. and im left with only 2000 pesos.... sheeeesshhh!!!

and i have to wait until nov 5 for the next one!! my salary isnt that bad though i paid ALLOT! of things with the money i just received sigh.... i swear my next salary is going to the bank and im going to stab my self if i break this promise lol...

anyway... im in love with a new game in my psp its called final fantasy dissidia... its so cool you can like use characters from different final fantasy episodes.. its so fun lol... well i think in this case im still a kid haha i love game consoles it just makes you escape from stress and problems.. i suggest you play one too hahah though im a little disappointed because yuna rinoa quistis tiffa aren't in the game... *sob*.... actually im in the office right now playing it ^_^ if your also a game junkie heres the best link for psp games that are up to date im enjoying the site... though its a little bit slow its pays to wait...

http://www.hakopsp.com/

the war in the office isnt over yet... lol... the other sides been doing the "get your friends close and your enemies closer" tactic and were not that stupid to fall for it. im pissed because the three bitch losers got the three lead positions in the company i hate it though i like it i can piss them even more... but poor them im proud to say that my boss still likes me and believes in me so much that they cant touch me. im ready for a gooooooddd bitch slapping with them haha...

anyway ill tell you guys the complete detail soon

im soooo freaking bored im basically putting everything that's in my mind now into this blog lol!!

im hungry hahaha ^_^

to be or not to be that is the question...

2009-10-16T00:35:00.000-07:00

I've been pondering about conquering a new Field.. i don't know what came up to me but suddenly i felt like i wanted to go to medical school, alot of my friends told me that being a medical student is a lot of hard work and it needs D E T E R M I N A T I O N it sounds... yes scary though i don't know where I'm getting this drive to be in one.. i asked my mom about it this morning and she told me that it costs allot to study no to mention the 100 thousand peso bond! wwhheeeww... so my mom told me to study psychology first then after that complete my medical studies..

maybe its because of my personality that i always want to be on top! being a doctor is real hard work, 10 years isn't a joke! T_T though if you become one the rewards are great, you get to have a secured future and a luxurious life and the respect you'll get from the people around you...

i know this is the complete opposite from what my plan is before... i wanted to own an ice cream parlour or a business of my own and be a business tycoon in the future.. both are hard to attain but i think that i can do both when i study medicine at the same time save up for a business but if i don't study medicine and save up for just a business I'm only going to have just the business

and how does doctor kevin sound??? sweet eh! hehe

why not have the best of both worlds right?? ...

sigh** this is really a tough decision i have to decide by the end of this year... i hope my decision is going to be a good one! T_T

lord help me think....

^_^,,V

2009-10-06T00:19:00.000-07:00

lol vainty

last friday october 2 i guess.. i was actually in a team building with my office mates here in the office... it was actualyl fun! i was actually expecting a very bad atmosphere but it didnt happen ^_^ well... i didnt like some of the outcome but everything went well, though i had to leave early because my mom told me that were going to have a black out in our area because the local electricity companys gona shut it down because of the new typhoon... so i went home around 5pm luckily my cousins are in a near by mall so i went grocery shopping with them.... we arrived back home 7pm i was really expecting a real typhoon around that time but.. no there wasnt! hahah... the typhoon didnt cross the philippines... we were really lucky.. so that night we jsut had fun!

im actually dating this person whom i met jsut a few weeks back.. and the person seems to be the person i like.. hehee physically.. ^_^ though we had a couple of fights just last night and the other night... actualyl were not i na relationship yet because i want to make it official on friday when we meet ^_^ ive planned a nice date so the person will fall for me HARD ^_^! eheheh! i just hope it works out! the only problem that were facing is that we dont have our own space... i cant bring the person to my house.. my moms gonna kill me... so im jsut waiting for the person to graduate next year and also i want my own space so i can do whatever i want with it! ^_^

anyway everythings soooooo boring lately!! whats up people!!

what a weekend

2009-09-28T00:41:00.001-07:00

well... i havent noticed whats happening around the philippines until my cousin showed me some clips from facebook... alot of damage was made... flood and everything.... luckily there wasnt any on our end.. though the lights in my room went out.. i dont know what happend... i actually cant sleep without any lights so im stuck sleeping with outher people hahah...

i heard a news about one actress here in the philippines her house was actually submerged in water and all her things were soaked wet! and there comes her friend richard guttierez... he was on a speed boat ready to pick christine reyes from ehr roof top... its really romantic... though i dont think rtheres something going on between the two lol its jsut sooo romantic!! ^_^ anyway... im so lucky and blessed that no one in my familly got hurt or even felt the harsh typhoon.. we just had realy heavy rain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=923IKL9Lij4

the typhoon even flooded even highways and underground tunnels everything! it was actualyl scary in metro manila look at the link, actually i think its one of the strongest typhoons ive ever seen in the philippines... and... there are 2 more super typhoons comming! so please guys let this be a lesson... prepare for the worst!

well.. as for me... i ate ALOT during my weekend i watched alot of DVDs and everything! i basically had a nice time with my familly! and the best thing is i didnt drink!!!! ^_^ im going back to my clean life style! no more drinking!!! ^_^ so there.... i ate carbonara a lot of chocolates buffalo wings, my aunts famous kaldereta with fried rice and chocolate oatmeal bars... and alot more... hahah!! good thing i dont get fat that easy!! phheeeww..... its really nice eating during rainy days!!

IM BACK IN THE MARKET!! lol.... well.. i cope up really fast, and now im back in the market... waiting for someone to buy me hahah... well... there are some im concidering and i hope it turns out well! ^_^ people say why do i need to do this... well.. its just like... "why wouldnt you eat something nice while your fully capable of doing it so!" i mean i dont need to follow the 3 MONTH RULE! people have been saying... (let 3 months pass after your breakup) i dont care what people say actually... as long as itll make me feel happy and contented... well ill do it! ^_^

fridays are always right! ^_^

2009-09-24T23:04:00.001-07:00

my sisters back from Singapore.... and i missed her ^_^ hehheh i read in her twitter that she really wants to go home.. feeling home sick and all haha.... anyway.. today's FRIDAY!!! again!! and I'm looking forward to a very relaxing day with my family!!! I'm not gonna hang out outside.. or with friends! I'm just gonna sit down and play my usual game with PS2...

i don't have debts at the moment... but yesterday i was really thinking about getting a credit card... its funny because i tell my friends to prevent me in applying for one, but.. i just cant help it. but!! congratulations to me!! finally got to my mind that i do not need it! my sister buried herself with debts before.. and so as my uncle who loaned around 200k just to pay off.... my aunt just borrowed 30k and now shes paying 100k soooo.... that just goes to show that theres 2 word for me! and that's NO! WAY! i was just thinking when i go to Starbucks.. no more hassle.. and when eating out.. also when i need to buy something that my budget doesn't approve of

as i posted on face book credit cards are the DEVIL!

NOTE: people if your thinking about getting one of these... don't... return back to god...

just awhile ago i was browsing through millions of DVDs at ruins for my DVD marathon i bought UP, Sorority Row and Hang Over and 2 anime DVDs lol 1 is gravitation and the other is HOLIC 2... ^_^ I'm looking forward to a really relaxing weekend, i hope you guys too!! ^_^ though i think u guys are like super inactive..

hahaha ^_^ by the way i really miss you guys!!!

XoXo...

happy birthday kenjie!!

2009-09-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POKKKSSS!!!!!!!

SEPTEMBER 24!!!

2009-09-24T00:58:00.000-07:00

all i have to do now... is walk... and never look back... forgive... but not forget.. dont forget the lessons learned

well.... alot of things happened to me these past few days... all of them art somewhat bad... lol... who the fuck cares... anyway... as from my previous post you can see i was really angered by someone or prolly something! hahaha... let me just update you guys with that....

Friday night i finished my work under time to go home because my head was really screaming in pain because of whats happening anyway... i saw all of them... to make the long story short... the "feeling rich and beautiful" justine channel ramos... was there...

I'm actually not buying from what shes saying about that "i just did that because we wanted to change you" what the fuck??? i was listening to their conversation that really sounds like she wanted to burn me... and all her plans... so i 100% believed it was bullshit... she was just afraid.... because she knows i can... ( if your reading this I CAN... I STILL CAN!!! ) so don't even think about it...

my plans were really gruesome... and once it hits her... god... shell never forget my name..

anyway... i just want to apologize to the person i really hurt... yea i know i was wrong... that i was being a flirt to everyone... and i know Ive done it a couple of times now.. i know you loved me more than anyone made sacrifices... i did the same!! but were two different people... I'm me and your you.. that's just the way it is... I'm sorry I'm really sorry.... you fell in love with a demon....

i know you can find someone much better than me... but don't forget the good times we shared... and think that all has its ending... and i know that our relationship is about to end... sigh** i hope we can still be friends in the future... i know nows not the best time but time can heal everything..

this person is really... one of a kind.. but there are some flaws too everyone has...

I'm ready to move on... ^_^ I'm planning to write a novel about something... maybe fiction just to keep myself busy... asides from work.. i have a lot of plans actually... and i hope to make everything to pass! i hope to be successful by the end of 2010... and not no one can stop me!! I'm enjoying my life now... with my family... with my new friends... some parts of my work.. and i hope next year will be better... guys!!! Christmas is near!! ^_^

XoXo.....

2009-09-18T00:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday was one of the most angriest moments i ever had, someone betrayed me and i didnt see it coming, i was very stupid to trust someone.... she ruined my relationship with my lover, but i think everythings going to be ok with the both of us...

JUSTINE CHANELLE RAMOS aka As the "feeling rich and beautiful" lol

* no one belvies her riches because theres really none... hah

* she thinks shes the "IT GIRL" what the fuck?? 4'9?? midget slut?? oh god and by the way... if ur chins a DICK! it would be better lol because its very long... HAHAHHA

*shes a klepto... ooopppss... she steals money... ^_^ HOW ELITE...

*she sucks the dick of drunk people... aww... TOO BAD FOR ME BOO HOO....

and alot more... she actually fell for me, and told me that i was the most good looking guy that she went out with...lol it was really funny... babe... your just one of the people i just played with and you fell for it... heheh dont think that u can do everything... conceited b!tch because you dont know how i do things... i do this well done.. im not threatening you... because its on its way... ^_^

when she goes to school before she told me that she only had 120 pesos to spare so sometimes she couldn't eat... EFFING POOR??? LOL!!! once again HOW ELITE!! hahaha...

all of her mannerisms came from me and david... like BURN* Snap Snap* lol hahaha she has no originality... and lots more, she thinks shes blair waldorf... oooo... spell impossible??? lol...

oh god... i could go on and on... pero this isnt me... this isnt burning im just releasing my feelings for this sorry loner. anyway... shes gonna fall... and get hurt...

if your reading this justine channele ramos! dont pretend... your just a paper tiger!!! =)) im telling you.... im not... and if ur going to make a post to counter this??? look at your followers... you only have me... oooppss deleted... hheheheh ^_^

havent met my sister... you dont know why we call her "THE BITCH QUEEN" hahahaha beware ugly being... your gonna get it. this is reality now.. and u cant change it...

^_^

2009-09-09T00:09:00.000-07:00

its raining here in the philippines making it harder for me to stay out of bed T_T i ate spaghetti for breakfast... since i had alot of leftover ingredients from my birthday last saturday... anyway...

im still working in the same comapany... i got promoted to manager level a few months back... its ok.. though its very tiring lol... alot of things just happened... and i also met alot of people on my way to this date... i missed blogging tellign u guys everything thats inside my heart... but now i think i really have time for it ^_^ hehehe... so there...

past few days im closer to my familly ive been drinking with them and everything! though im really bothered by the fued theyve been having but anyway... my cousin dave instantly became one of the closest person in my life lol... hes just like me... though were diffrent in some cases...

also my sister became closer to me.. actually i think everyone!! ^_^ this year is really really nice!! though i had the rollercoaster ride of my life last year... im so blessed to have these kinds of people around me...

im planning on resigning work late this year... i dont know... i think im not happy with my job anymore plus there are some techincalities that dosent meet my wants... but i still dont know! atleast before i get relieved from my job i got a possition thatll make my resume smell better... but anyway whatever...

finally im planning to move out next year im planning to live alone... in a condo near my work.. i hope everything pushes through... ^_^ chateu elyssee its a nice place... though i need to work harder for it well i guess playtimes over for kevin ^_^ hehe.... i just wish next years gonna be a good year for me!!! ^_^ FOR US!! ^_^

birthday ^_^

2009-09-08T04:13:00.000-07:00

september 5 2009.

I JUST TURNED 22 EVERYBODY!!!

i just had a blast just this saturday! i was expecting for the rain to ruin it but wow... a miracle just happened lol... it was rainign really hard from 6am and i was like so pissed i was about to cancel my party, even so... we still continued to prepare stuff.. everything the decor and stuff... still it was raining i felt realy hopeles.... . 5pm came suddenly the rain stopped ^_____________^ i was like super happy but it was still drizzling the party started around 8pm and the rain completely stopped i was so happy!!! though half of the people who were suppose to come couldnt make it because of the damn rain... T_T sob sob sob.... anyway it was still great i get to hang out with the people i love the most.... lol... actualy the booze was like all over! hahah it was so many we couldnt finish it all... anyway... im like so busy but ill update tomorrow!!!!

i SOOO love my familly <3

i so love these guys!!

im forseeing hes going to be the best man in my wedding lol!!! ^_^ hes like above my friends!

these are just some of the pictures lol im sooo busy to upload all ^_^

special thanks to these people!!!

Justine Channel Ramos!! Ralph David Retuya!
Paul Alexis Retuya!! Jorge Danielle Retuya!!!!

2009-08-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

ive been drinking alot lately and my life is like sooo stagnant. im looking for some temporary high just to release my self from this hiatus T_T i have like soo many plans but never came true lol so typical me... anyway so whats up? lol

* lol i dont want to talk about my love life and the big $%^ life its quite ok... but not that perfect lol....

*work... wel ive been doing well, got promoted last last month as a team lead, its ok but kinda tiring good thing is i earn more.. also im starting to hate these stupid kimchi lovers, they are REALY getting on my nerves! id ont give a shit if i lose this job, im young and im a kick ass when i move to another company lol,

*my famillys doing ok... my mom still has this psychological thingy when it comes to my brother... well i have those too... my sisters still a bitch.. but most of the time shes nice and thats the good part.. biological dad is starting to become a huge PAIN! on my fathers side offcourse.. they think hes starting to be like the "oh im poor feed me or else i ll die" shit... he can never come to us if were talking about finances or else ill be the one wholl stab his neck and let him bleed to death... -_- im getting more closer to my cousin david and less with my best cousin kenjie, i dont know whats up with him.. maybe its the whole i have a new posse thing.. but its ok ere still cool i still think were close... my brother on the other hand is doing ok... hes been very "OBEDIENT" lately.. i hope it lasts...

*ive been thinking about moving to another place, i want to start a new life well, im acutaly in the process i realy kicked some old stuff out of my life and started with new ones, friends, contacts etc.... maybe im maturing lol, but yea i want to move to another area live in a diffrent enviroment stuff like that...

*ive been having this thing with a new person who just came into my life, i dont know what am i to her or what is she feeling around me... but i can say that i like her i just feel comfy around her, but the truth is im not expecting anything from her, she just came through a breakup and she sometimes confuse me about things.. i dont want to jump to any conclusions yet... but i think shes nice, she actually started as amy drinking buddy...

there are like lots more thats been happening with my life now im a little sleepy.. ZZZzzzzZZZ hehehe....

updates!!!

2009-06-11T05:25:00.001-07:00

wow! well alot of things happend to me, i was soooo freaking busy because of work work work work work!!! ^_^ anyway im listening to "o holy night" by david archuleta right now! hes so good... taking about david archuleta i went to his concert last may 16!!! ^_^ it was soooo freaking good!! thats the best concert ive seen so far... ive been a david archuleta fan from the start ^^ all the songs were awsome^_^i hope david comes back! we bought realy expensive tickets but its super worth it!!!!!!! ^_^

ill update you more tomorrow ^_^

pissed of tuesday!

2009-04-14T04:14:00.000-07:00

im a little pissed today because of the new team leader in our company.... as i posted before we had a merge with another company... actualy it wasnt a merge my bos bought the whole company so it meens he owns everything, its quite funny because it fels like they took over the company because the rules they have stays the same and our rules were like washed away, but im not really the type of person that they can hit on... because im reallygoing to hit back... as i told you guys before i work for a korean english academy, both online and offline... and i also work from 9am to 11 pm thats alot! so... they cant do power tripping on me because i know my stance in the company....

anyway... the team leader from the other side is going to become the general team leader of both parties, im not realy comfortable with that.. because they want to change everything.... and im really not up with that... good thing is i have a direct line with the owner of the academy and i talk with them often, so one wrong move, i can easily tell....

well whatever... anyway on the bright side... this november im planning to go to korea and spend like 1 month there look at the possibilities of better income.. well whatever.. basicaly my plan is enjoy my trip to korea ^^ sigh.... but i need to continue studying me new course... ^^ sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.... well... i hope all my plans pushes through

all is in red because im furious right now!

long weekend!

2009-04-13T00:51:00.000-07:00

wow! that was a very nice long weekend for me! last friday i hanged out with my cousins and played computer games and went on a road trip! because of the killer heat. actually we were planning to go fishing but unfortunately everythings closeedddd!!!! hahha! we drove for about 2 hours and all we got was the sign "its holy week come back next week" omg.... hahahah so we thought about going somewhere else, we thought about eating in a restaurant in tagaytay... but then we changed our minds to just eating in a pizzeria! yellow cab... hahaha! well it was ok because i loooovvvee pizzas! ^_^ anyway

saturday, i went to starbucks with some of my korean friends, actualy its like a routine now that whenever its saturday we go to ATC and spend hours and hours talking and laughing it was great, and very relaxing, after that we planned to go to the singing room and have a little fun! well.. it is very.. well i try to live my life clean, no smoking and no drinking... ^^ you guys should do the same.. hhahaha....

tin's apple pie cobbler

sunday.. i just stayed with my cousins at home played computer games and ate Tin's apple pie cobbler... and oh my gosh... its PRICELESS! the taste is so awsome! i love it! specially the vanilla ice cream thats topped with caramel! wow... the coldness and the warm part of the pie mixed together gave it a diffrent feel! its very very nice! tin's from a well known university for HRM, hotel and restaurant management, that course was my first choice but i end up with another... hahha anyway there you go... i stayed at home by the time it was 9pm... alone T_T im actually scared when im all alone.. hahah just like a kid but what the hell... i still played playstation up until it was 1am!! im so childish when it comes to playing and stuff like that, but when its work time, i try to be profesional as possible..

oh gosh... i really missed blogging ^_^ hahahah and reading your blogs ^_^,,V

leisure day... ^_^

2009-04-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

^_^ oh well, life is pretty difficult nowadys! i can only sleep for only 6 hours a day!!! i go to work from 9 AM to 11 PM during the weekdays, well i like what im earning and for me my work isnt really difficut, ofcourse i turn to a zombie whenver im really tired but i love my job, and offcourse the pay! hahaha yeah! i work for more than 12 hours a day!! so yea the pay can really make me smile offcourse!! ^_^ so there....

every saturday and sunday is my leisure day! ^^ i usualy go to starbucks and give my self a very relaxing moment, maybe reading a book or just listening to music while on the internet! starbucks can really change my mood because of its ambiance and maybe go to the spa! and have a massage! ^_^ last saturday me and my friends went to the spa to have a thai massage! it was great.... then on sundays i just stay at home play playstation and just rest! but often i go to starbucks or coffee bean.... ^_^ i dont care if im alone or not, but usualy i have my korean friends with me when i hang out! and also aze noona!!! ^^ shes actually my leisure buddy ^^ hahaha anyway tomorrows easter whatever... im looking forward to a very relaxing break ^^

reward your self for your hard work ^_^.........................

and! HAPPY EASTER!!....................................

kevin is back!!! ^_^

2009-04-06T04:18:00.000-07:00

well i havent been blogging for like 2 months already and now here i am ^______^ anyway there are alot of changes since i last posted a blog...

1. i work from 9am to 11pm now ( well its my choice.. hahaha!! so i have to live up to it!)

2. my savings is doing great ^^

3. my company merged with another company...

4. i got my hair longer than usual ^_^,,V hahah and i think it looks better on me.

5. my 3rd language is doing great ^_^

6. i had diffrent "boos" hahaha past few weeks

and i cant remember the other things hahah!! =P anyway wel basicaly my life is ok now... but a little weird at work because we are newly merged fromanother company now... my boss bought the other company so basicaly my boss has the power, but the other from the other company is being a bitch! i meen theyre just few and all of them are girls so its like we dont talk and all and the also ignore my boss wich is ALSO THEIR boss now! ahahah wich i think hasnt sunk on their punny little brains yet ^_^ anyway... well anyway basically im doing great with everything now... i just need to save more hahahah ^_^,,V

tae goon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love his song call me!!! ^_^

there... anyway ill keep on updating right now im so busy!!!!!

nothing to post!!

2009-03-03T02:10:00.000-08:00

random pics!!!

crapy pics....... hahahah the resoultions is kinda eewwwwww..... ahahah i dont have anything to blog about.... im starting to be a workaholic now...... hahah im planning to move out of our house and rent my own house... ^_^ time is so fast... before i was just playing in the streets with my friends now im planning to move out and have my own life??? wow!!! time is sooooo fast, lol i look like a student more than a teacher T_T.... huhuhuh.................. see yah!!!

confessions hahah

2009-02-22T21:52:00.000-08:00

im drank so haaarrd last night and i dont usually drink... so i barfed hard too haha!! anyway alot of things happend to me past few days, i went on a date... etc etc... so right now im back to work, it seems that this week is gonna be one roller coaster ride! ill be working for 12:30pm up unitl 11:00 pm! hahaha! but i really dont mind im quite enjoying my job and also im gonna get paid dearly. hahah! so anyway! going back to my story last night me and my cousins drank, and it was so fun! haha i just felt like drinking and i want to get drunk and sleep the night away but damn im feeling this hang over thingy up until now! its crazy... it feels like i want to puke again lol. anyway im back into blogging again!

whats the worsting thing about me right now is i spend money like C.R.A.Z.Y ugghhh... just last week i got my pay and it was ok! but as soon as i get my pay its of to the mall for me!!! i shop for clothes and stuff! i really dont know how to stop i want to save more and shop less saturday i watched "the confessions of a shopaholic" i absolutely can relate to this movie! haha!! makes me want to think about going to a group therapy like she did! hahaha

this movie was just so-so.. im so afraid to evolve like her so probably now i need to stop and prevent myself! if anyone reading this has any ideas on how to help me please feel free to comment! T_T huhuhu... anyway shopping makes me feel happy! its just like when you buy this thing that you wanted you feel like your a brand new person! the feeling is so nice! but when i notice that my wallets empty.. there my world goes tumbling down! ahahah.... adn when i look at my closet and its filled with clothes i rarely wear T_T makes me want to tag each clothing on what date i should wear each.. haha..

Summary!

A Manhattan shopaholic (Isla Fisher) whose buying sprees have buried her in immense debt lands a columnist gig dishing out financial advice in this Touchstone comedy based on Sophie Kinsella's series of books. P.J. Hogan (My Best Friend's Wedding) directs, with producing duties being handled by Jerry Bruckheimer. Rebecca Bloomwood (Fisher) can't seem to break her habit for making impulsive purchases, and while she's always decked out in the latest styles, her credit card bills are as thick as a telephone book. If Rebecca could somehow manage to land her dream job at a high-profile fashion magazine, perhaps she could transform what is now a simple addiction into something that could really benefit her professionally. When Rebecca becomes an advice columnist at a financial magazine published by the same company as her favorite fashion magazine, her fresh approach strikes a chord with readers and she quickly becomes the toast of the town. Meanwhile, her bank account is still bone dry, wreaking havoc on her love life and placing her career in jeopardy. As Rebecca teeters on the brink of bankruptcy, she gradually begins to reassess her priorities in life. Joan Cusack, John Goodman, Hugh Dancy, and Krysten Ritter co-star in the Touchstone Pictures production. ~ Jeremy Wheeler, All Movie Guide

2009-02-16T05:52:00.000-08:00

ill be back in awhile..... ^_^

ok ok....

2009-02-13T03:34:00.000-08:00

alright!........ IM GONNA LOOOSSSEEE THE SPECS!

since everyone thinks i look stupid in these im gonna wear contacts again hheh.... anyway i only wear them when im infront of the computer... ^_^

anyway im so bored today just chatted with david in skype ^^ i got him pregnant... lol!! hahaha and he wants to abort lol....

i wish tomorrow will not be a boring day....

heheh....

^_________^

bored

2009-02-10T01:50:00.001-08:00

well im still with the love of siam fever hehe.... i love it, anyway its tuesday today and life couldn't get any border! anyway well on thursday my students are going back to their countries so thats the end of my 1 oclock to 11 sched so im gonna go back to 3 to 11pm... im gonna miss them so much!! ^^ anyway today i have a webcam in my office hyung kevin saw me lol! i hate webcams but we were asked to bring one today! im waiting for david to get on but prolly hes still asleep.. anyway i just ate my dinner and it was nice... guys can you give me more nice movies to watch ^_^

^_^

boring

2009-02-06T00:36:00.000-08:00

lol its my second post on my second blog ^_^ hahahhaha and its completely diffrent from my public blog well ask david and shuiji hahaha ^_^ anyway send me your email address and lets see if ill approve it ^^ anyway today was pretty ok... problems never seem to go away but yea im still kevin ^^ strong as ever ^_^ i got my salary yesterday, and i was so shocked because i dont know what i did but it went really up!!! hahaha =P and i love it!! offcourse....

anyway nothing really special ^^ usuall boredrome....

^_^,,V

things i like the most

2009-02-05T01:40:00.000-08:00

well past few days was really a roller coaster ride for me... and i hate it! but i have to face reality everyone has problems and everyone is suffering also like me one way or another.... so to keep my spirit high im gonna make a list of "MY WANTS"

PRO CAM i a little expensive! but its ok! ^^ i like taking pictures and im very sentimental! thats why i would lovveee to have a pro cam!

Nike Air Force 1 Mid '07, Whiter Than Ever this is my first priority!!! grrrr... im craving for it!! my feet is so horny for these shoes hahah!!! I LOVE IT!!

SKULLCANDY HEADPHONES!! i love music i have an mp3 and an ipod video right now... but these are really candies for my skull!!!!

-Built-in detachable MP3 player with direct USB upload/download
-DJ style headset with 90 degree swivel earcups
-Plays MP3, WMA & DRM files
-USB v1.1
-40mm power driver
-Auxiliary audio jack with detachable connection cable
-Optional battery pack instantly turns the built-in MP3 into a portable MP3 player
-Monochrome LCD display
-512MB Flash memory for music or data
-Built-in voice recorder, with voice activated recording (VAD) support
-Lyric Support
-ID3 Tag Support
-Playlist Support
-Deleting files is possible from the device
-MP3 Player can be used as a mass storage device
-Headphones can be used with other audio devices
-MP3 player can be used with other headphones

plane ticket to Korea... ^^ its obvious what this does right? if im gonna be lucky next year ill establish my own English Korean center ^^

another important ticket in my life! big bang concert ticket!!! ^_^ im dying to go and watch the concert ^^ i loooooovveeee it!!!!

basically thats all!!!! ^_^ not really big wants these are the things that i can really achieve... oooo...... im just so excited ^_^ hehehehe.....

familly can stay together???

2009-02-03T01:37:00.000-08:00

today i cried at work. its about our family problem everything getting worse, so Ive decided to move out! i feel really bad right now i want to puke, Y_Y but whatever! even if all of this things are happening right now i don't care and i don't give a shit! I'm still gonna pursue everything that i planned! actually my own mother is holding me back!!! and i hate it! i mean i Love my mom but! this is to much! i cant be stagnant i want to have a higher rank in society! i want to have my own business! but my mom gives me problems not really financially but emotionally!! Y_Y i guess i just have to be strong and aim for my goal.

5 years from now i know that ill be living on my own in my own place... maybe in Korea or maybe in japan.. but definitely not here in the philippines... ill be having my own business and maybe live with a partner or something like that.

what am i looking for in a partner?

independent
loves me very much
matured thinking
understands me very well
supports me in everything that i do
help me to distinguish right and wrong
caring
and offcourse goodlooking and sexy lol

its not really hard to find this kind of person when the person is very independent! everything follows... i just hope the person is goodlooking lol!!

im really depress right now my head is aching in pain because of my mom.... ive also realized one thing. she never said i love you to me. she never showed enough care! i dont have a dad.. so basicaly i started to be independent in a very young age!
my mom right now has a new boyfriend and basicaly my familly dosent want him so everythings gone crazy... actually my mom would rather pick his boyfriend rather than me.. and it hurts soooooooooo much!!!!!! i mean im her son!! god!!! my chest is really tight right now just to think of this, i love her but its really time to move out!.....
my hand is still shaking right now and my eyes are still teary... when i go home later i dont know what to do. maybe im just gonna pack my clothes and everything, my knees are feeling really weak right now.. and i feel cold! how can my life be so miserable?? my brother died and now this!!! oh man....... makes me want to kill myself! sigh*

i hope everythings gonna be alright....

busy >_<

2009-02-02T06:56:00.000-08:00

well i havent been updating like everyone else its because of the reason

i am busy......

well anyway... ive been plannign alot of things like... im gonna study more foreign languages...
and get my self a certificate so i can go around the world and work easily ^^ im having more plans for my future... ts really nice everythings going the way i planned! i ^_^ nyaw nyaw!!!!

well anyway i hope everyones ok!!! ^_^ i miss chatting with you guys! and i hope to see you soon!!! ^_^.

whatever things skies the limit

2009-01-29T22:56:00.001-08:00

i made a private blog so i can say things and post really "NICE" pictures for you guys ^_^ just add a comment to this post with your e-mail and i will approve, so you can read it ^_^

WHATEVER THINGS SKIES THE LIMIT!

some language and content is not suitable for people under 18 hahaha......

random pictures part II

2009-01-28T04:06:00.000-08:00

RANDOM PICTURES! MY BATANGAS TRIP!

nice...

^_^...

oo.. this is so nice.. the sand is so white... boat trip

preparing sam gyop sal.... yum yum!!1 ^_^

i looove the background!!! wow!!!! ^_^very nice ^^

my favorite student park jae min... ^_^ hes my only student here... ^^

mell and me ^_^ really a great time! ^^

ice cream! we ate because it was sooo hot this time!! ^_^ jae min looks so cute!!!

updates..... ^_^

2009-01-27T22:58:00.000-08:00

ok.. i havent been updating because i was so busy past few days... monday and tuesday we had a business trip with my company because its the lunar new year so there we went to the beach with some teachers and the owner and his wife and with je min my student... he is very cute! ^_^ o anyway i had a so-so time... i actually didnt enjoy my time with this one teacher... he is soooooo full of it anyway. saturday i went on a date... and this goes to my private blog hahaha...

im planning to make a private blog for people who are reall my friends there i can say verything hahaha.... ^_^.....

i missed you guys! and now its back to work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hyung kevin
hyung willy
hyung darren
shuiji
david
jon
nicholas
armanique
yanni
etc...............

^_^ belated happy new year!!!!!

ill be making my private blog today ^_^.... see you there...

never ending story...

2009-01-21T22:46:00.000-08:00

i woke up early today because i have a meeting with the school where my brother goes too AGAIN!! but this time its becuase of a different thing, its all about my brother charles insurance... MS. Mara txted me too come early about 10pm, she is the one who handles the insurance in that school.. well im never really expecting much to come out of his insurance because he just studied in that school for a little while, just for about 6 months?
so there my mom didnt want to go to the school because she will again... burst into tears, me too i was teary eyed at that time because i remember my brother, actually before i woke up i had this dream.. and it was all about my brothers insurance i saw the amount and said to myself.

"this amount is really imposible...."

so i arrived in the school with my mom and entered the casheirs office,

my mom started to have tears in her eyes, she couldnt help her emotions, (i dont want to see my mom cry because its automatic... my eyes are going to break down... my mom cried when we entered the cashier and she wanted to tear the check up.. so i took the check away from her hahaha, and ironicaly it was the same amount that i had in my dream.. i was surprised because i was thinking about my dream that time and i said, no this really cant be.. but there it is... the same amount... it was a large amount of money... and i mean LARGE

anyway.. i can live without all this without money without anything, if the exchange is my brothers life....

after the school my mom and i went to the mall because i needed to get new glasses because my eyes are getting worse... so there.. we ate in KFC my favorite fastfood place! chickens there are so nice!

now im really wondering how can we move on... its really hard

2009-01-19T05:42:00.001-08:00

ok today was ok... i went to my brothers school again because the principal wanted me to come, its all about my brothers grade he is in 1st year high school and we really didnt have any idea whats happening with his grades.. so i went.. when i entered the guidance counselors door she goes like...

uhh... excuse me who are you?
me: umm im kyles brother..

oh.. why are you the one who came? im asking for kyles mother who are you again?

me: i said im kyles brother...

oh! how old are you... what year are you in?

me: im already 21 years old ma'am and i already work

oh im so sorry because kyle dosent seem your brother
(then she laughed)

the guidance councelor was really surprised becasue me and my brother dosent lookalike haha and i look like a highschool student, she was even more shock when she asked about my job... lol. im a korean english teacher in a company heheh so at the begining of our conversation she was talkign to me like i was just a student but in the end she was really talking to me profesionaly because i barraged her with my english hahah.. and shes really not that good well anyway...

sci 70

math 70

MAK 70

english 73

history 72

and so on... i forgot what are the other grades but it only goes to this trend... actually i wa a student in this school a few years back then when i was in grade school it was so funny because they comapred me to my brother hahaha...
I've never failed any of y grades before actually i was really good with academics before i liked joining clubs and other activities in school... "BUT!" not because i wanted to be smarter, its because i wanted to skip math!!!!! i despise math... i skip school because of this... i can manage all of the other subjects but math.. a big no no....

conclusion is..... my borther has to go summer class or... RETAIN being 1st year high school

my mom was so furious also my sister, i also scolded my brither because all throught his stay in that school he didnt had any passing grade... OMg!

so there when i was about o go home i saw this leng chai sudent and the leng chai knows my name hahaha ^^ and just now the leng chai added my friendster but the person is pretty young hahaha so i dont know! hahaha but i think hes so leng chai.... but i dont want to be a pedo.. but SOOOO LENG CHAI!! ahahaha.... there were people calling my name again when i was about to go home lol im pretty popular with the youngsters.. hahah!! and i dont like it because sometimes mystudent is not really taking me seriously arrghhh.... but whatever my job is really fun ^^

2009-01-16T00:16:00.000-08:00

ive found this poem that i made a long time ago when i was badly in love with someone i left this poem in my friendster blog and found it again, this poem is from the heart so i hope you feel it too ^_^ its called "starfish" funny name? lol actually it has a connection with the person's name.. i like making songs before and also making poems i really like it here it goes....

Starfish

This feeling’s devouring me inside eating all my memories, replacing it with someone someone whom I knew for a short period of time but the shortness of time-shared isn’t a hindrance for my addiction and craze.
If ever my life changes and you knew that I love you
And that I love you isn’t the right word for you
Then the right word for you isn’t right for what I’m feeling inside.
Time passes by and every time I see you my heart jumps in tremendous joy
You feed my spirit that is hungry for a dew of your attention
You wake my heart that’s in its deep slumber
You ease my Craze and addiction
You make my day simply just fine
Now as time flies by and its 6 pm your still not near me I hold my chest
Burdened by the desire to see you even just a glimpse will do
But still your not here and everything’s turning gray my sight on everything
Decays and withers together with my undernourished heart.

Now as my day pass by and yet I had it with you, without the love I long for
And the long awaited reply to my heart is now where near.
Now I know that there’s nothing more I can do,
The right word for me isn’t the right word for you
The way that I fell inside is still at its bloom so it isn’t easy for me
To just ignore and move on.
I love you and I cherish you still I adore you! And look up to you
These words that keeps on bursting inside me… I couldn’t help them
Even though I now know that all you can offer is friendship
I cannot deny that I am still addicted to you
That every time I see you I feel at ease
But every time my day ends the pain just maims my heart knowing that
I cannot love the one my heart’s true desire.

-kevin a.k.a as little k

love?!?

2009-01-15T01:35:00.000-08:00

lol i guess love is in the air... hahah feb 14 is comming really close ^_^ valentines day! hahaha.... actually i was thinking about my post today and i thought to post to counter what shuiji just posted.. about love being a NEED... i completely dissagree!! lol... sorry... but i think the closest thing i can tagg to that is love is important but not a need, i think money is... GREEDY me hahaha!! no im just joking, but honestly if you think that way your just gonna kill your self with thoughts that you really NEED! lolo more like craving right? =P sorry again shuiji! =P hahaha but i hope you get my point ^^

ive only fell inlove twice in my whole life! im still inlove with those two people first when i was 14... and then the last one was 3 years ago... my heart still bleeds because of these two... now what i think about love is like a cycle.. like someone will make you cry, and you will make someone cry... lol thats what happend to me.. sometimes i call it karma, because for example theres someone who likes me very much... and i just ignore the person... so the person feels really bad right? "P.A.T" did this to me but we went out a couple of times we even made out! heheh... but i dont know what happened to us suddenly the communication got cut... huhuh..... then the feeling is gone!!! Y_Y i miss "P.A.T" so much!!!! Y_Y i actually found "P.A.T"s friendster just yesterday but he dosent reply... huhuhuhu

when i was 14 years old i loved another person and that "MJZ" lol initials... i stil love MJZ up until now that jerk took away my virginity hahaha... but still i love MJZ these two people are my weakness... they can do whatever they want to me... sighh* to bad theyre out of reach... falling in love is such a BITCH! i hate it.... i meen i had relationships before but nothing struck me the way these two people did! this is not lust ladies and gentlemen.... this is love... its beens years now but still my heart beats for them... grrrr... one more thing these two people look sooo alike! hahaha maybe if i see another person who looks like P.A.T and M.J.Z i will fall inlove again... lol

hyung darren and hyung kevin are badly inlove with each other i can tell... because i chat with them wheb i dont have anything to do int the office lol.... and isnt is obvious with their posts!? lol... so maybe shuji is really envious lol.... ^_^ love is really like a virus right?? it eats you up inside until you die haha

i like chocolates yum yum!! gift please for valentines day =P
i always receive chocolates during valentines so happy ^_^
i wonder what will i recive this valentines day =P

^_^

SUPER ADVANCE HAPPY VALENTINES!

aim for something

2009-01-13T23:34:00.000-08:00

this morning my first thought was what would be my life in the future, and i remembered why im doing all of these things today ^^ lol this is gonna be an inspirational post...

most of use work right? before i was working as a call center agent... and it really sucked! i hate call centers doing the same things over and over again!!! i absolutely hate it.. but i managed to stay for about 5 months in that kind of job ^_^,,V but i really hate it

anyway im not suppose to work, this is just for myself, i wanted to try doing stuff on my own! im planning to open my own business later this year but i dont want to quit my current job... im enjoying it actually.. try to hone my language skills ^_^ well if you really like the thing your doing now, you really dont get tired of doing it and basically you will be successful at it!

maybe later this year ill open a shop maybe an ice cream parlor or a restaurant and i have to reaserch to make it big time ^^ im only 21, and for me doing all these independent stuff is a little too overwhelming, just to think that before i ask money from my parents go to school and do some teenager stuff but now, im thinking of ways to improve myself as a person and as a buissnes man lol ^^ sounds funny! so there dreams really do come true if you really aim for it! actually my ultimate goal is to be a ambassador of some country ^^ i like the fact that i will learn many cultures, many language and also people from around the world! its really nice ^^ but we can never tell right?? after a few years maybe i can be one! hahah ^_^

buissness here in the philippines isnt easy i read in one article so you must be prepared with investing and also reaserch what things people like! ^^ i wanna be unique in a sense that ice cream parlors are not really rampant here in the philippines though this place is in a tropical weather right? well im still aming for it! doing more research will absolutely help me, im currently happy in my position in life right now...

aiming for something will really make you happy in the future ^^
im not gonna make this long... if you can dream it you can do it ^_^

GAMBATTEE!!! KEVIN KUN!! hahah

random pictures ^^

2009-01-12T22:55:00.000-08:00

random pictures!!!!

me with my cousins!! lol ^^ this was a very fun day ^_^ x mas party ^^ they wrote stuff on my chest and my arms! hahah! we were singing karaoke this time ^^

lol this is quite funny... i went to the cr with my cammera and naughty me... i caught something...

at first they were faced together ^o^ kikiki..... and then i pulled out my cammera took a picture... hmm let me guess what theyre doing hahaha!!

we went to cartimar saw these cute little kittens ^^ meow meow!!!! ^^

cute stuff toys from "ATC" i bought one just because its so cuuutteee i bought the black piggy one ^_^ kawai desu ne???? ^^!!!!!!!! kyopta!!! =P

healthy salads! are the best way to keep your skin looking radiant ^^ i love it ^^ this is at sbarro! mmmmmm..... yum yum!!!

yum yum!!! ham..... lol ^^

park mun hwi!!! ^^ he was my student last year! and i saw them in festival mall park mun hwi is the one wearing red and white shirt ^^ kyopta?? ^^ very very!!! ^^ i miss him so much... huhuhuh MUN WHI BOGOSHIPTA!!

worrrmmmss.... used to feed big fishes ^^ yucky lol!!! ^_^

my malling sunday!!! ^_^

2009-01-11T22:47:00.000-08:00

yea saturdays and sundays, both are very busy days for me ^^ saturday, we went to my brothers grave. because its his 40 days that hes not here... it was a breeze windy cold day... we also visited ashley the kid that died also beside our house... sunday.. me my nrother kyle and cousin david went to the mall together.. actually i was only planning to go alon because i wanted to go to the spa have a foot spa also facial, but they tagged along, lol... unlicky them commign with me shopping??? ahahahha!!!! obviously theyre legs are gonna hurt after! lol!!! i love going to the malls shop for new clothes! and walk around look for stuff... anyway... my cousin is half german i think hes very tall... i was teaching him korean words just the basics because he wants to learn so i teached him on our way.. as we set foot in the mall we saw a bunch of korean kids... he is sooo freakin loud!! he said

ANYONG HA SEEYYYOOO!!!!!

the kids expression was like... "what the hell??" hahaha i was laughing so hard... then we went up the escaltor he saw a teenage boy korean he said it again

ANYONG HA SEYOOO!!!!

very loudly.. the boy went like "whatever!" hahahaha its really funny so anyway... i bought lots of stuff this last sunday lol its my only time to do the thing i want to ebcause i go to work at 1pm then go home late at around 11pm so there... continuing.. he did that to every korean we cam across to i just followed up and talked with the koreans so that we wouldnt get introuble because he was so freakin loud. sunday they werent many leng chais in the mall... i keep on looking but i cant see any lol!!! all ar "mosengyota" ugly in korean hhahha!! so there i ate alot actuallfirst we went to KFC!

my all time favorite! i hate mcdonalds i love kfc pretty simple ^^ iate 2 pcs chicken nad coleslaw my favortie lol ^^ no diet for today ^^

next stop is dairy queeni ordered cashew caramel its my favorite ice cream in the whole world next to pistachios =)

in between i bought some stuff... alot lol. clothes stuff etc* saw some korean people again laughed because of my cousin shop and walk... shop and shop again lol ^^

eventually we got tired so we went to starbucks

i was a little bit tired but i can stilll go go go!!! hahah i bought a carmel frappuchino venti size, so there i chilled for awhile and then im ready to go battle out the mall again hahah, we pased by this yummy stall who sells crab meat, egg saucers and shark fins etc.. so there we bought while we were walking, i bought the crab meat lol.. good thing my cousin saw his friend so my brother and my cousin went with my cousins friend... hahah they were saved! hahah so i went out walking doing more shopping!! ^_^,,V

so thats pretty much it nothing much... oh yeah remember the grocery person i posted before? were talking again! hahahahaha =P luv it!!!!!!

ehhermm my diet was totally wrecked hahah! but its ok ^^ still sexy haha!!

funny day! rolf!

2009-01-07T23:17:00.000-08:00

last night something really funny happend.. it was about 10 oclock here in the office and i dont have anymore work to do! so im like soooo happy i can go home early! ^_^ i cleaned my desk and fixed all my things, then said goodbye to my office mates... so i plugged on my mp3 player and listend to music... "nobody by: wondergirls" lol i waited for the elevator and i entered as i was going down i was imagining stuff what if i press the basement and then the door opens then something is there standing looking really scary, so i was laughing at myself hahaha... then i looked at my mp3 then suddenly ding dong! the door opens andi looked straight i went like WAAAAAHHH!!!!! I SCREAMED SO LOUD then i punched the persons face in front of me while looking down in the floor... ( so child like!! ) it was the security guard of the building, i was surprised because he looks so scary so big and dark!. i though it was a monster! hahah!! i said saorry a million times but he laughed and said it was just ok but it stings.... lol!!! he asked how old i am, i said im already 21 he was surpised and said i look like a teenager hahah!!! i think the guard is gay.... lol!! he asked me where i work and i said i work at rainbow business depa. and quickly i said i have to go i need to go somewhere while i was walking really embarrassed the guard then said.....

"Take care cutie!!!!" O_o

confirmed... he is gay... hahahah!!! so there!

i woke up around 11 am because i slept at my cousins house that night... i went home at around 7am then sleep then wake up at 11am... so there my aunt suddenly called my mom. regarding my brother charles inssurance... my mom quickly told me that i should go to my brothers school and fix everything because its really important... but i said i have to go to work at 1am and i cant take long being there so, her boyfriend is the one who will go there but still i went to the school and talked to my brothers teacher, when i go to my brothers school students usually goes up to me and ask for my number! or just ask something about me hahaha not that im braging but i dont like it because it takes time and im really hurrying... i wont mind if leng chai will come up to me and ask me! ahahah... iwould even not go to work lol!!
i was walking in the corridor and im very surprised alot of student know my name and they keep on calling me but i pretended i dont hear them because my earphones were pulgged to my ear... so there i saw my brother kyle and my cousin shanna mae in the court doing some cooking class they were very happy to see me.. me too then i talked to MS. Mara and told her that my mothers second husband will come and talk about the insurance not me because i have work.
so i rushed to my vehicle and sat down. suddenly i few student ran to me and threw something while i was inside the car lol! i got hit in the eye.. so they said sorry lol... i said alright it was a bunch of numbers

"hey kevin its your choice who will you pick amongst us!"

there are numbers of students there i was laughing because they looked so funny so anyway i went to my work feeling a little bit sleepy. my sleep isnt enough i wanted to sleep more... huhuhu Y_Y so there...

todays day is very happy! because the case of my brothers insurance is going somewhere ^^ also i have all the time because i dont have any students online! im so happy! lol ^_^

LUV IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sad...

2009-01-07T03:15:00.000-08:00

i always feel sad and depress every time i see any link to my late brother... i cant help but cry even if im in the office.. i don't know how to heal.. this is the only thing i cant beat!! the feeling is so overwhelming, and its so hard to overcome ive talked to alot of people to help me get over it but nothing seems to work... the feeling is so powerfull.

sigh***

me with my cousins... this was at night during my brothers funeral trying o have a fake smile but my eyes are all messed up Y_Y huhuh.....

christmas party... this is without my brother.... after this picture i felt really sad... and i cried inside the room Y_Y.....

anyway im currently falling in love with this song!! its soo cool

Back Into You - Amber

i actually gave this to hyung kevin because it fits him right now... but its my personal favorite as of the moment... ^^ enjoy!

uh huh? yea yea....

2009-01-06T22:33:00.000-08:00

last night me and hyung kevin chatted on msn, we shared some thoughts about stuff and i think hes a pretty nice guy... he dosent base everything on looks, also hes smart and really friendly...
basicaly hes a really great guy. great looks with a very pleasing personality anyway...

something struck me that night, while we were talking i realized one thing, some people really gets affected about their appearance well yea nowadays people can be cruel to call people such names..
for myself i really dont mind ^_^ if people rate me or judge me on the scale that i dont like its ok ^^ its their prespectives right? anyway people still like me the way i look and also my personality but some... lets just say vice versa.

its pretty hard when people get realyl afeced by it... they do drastic messures for example. liposuction, and plastic surgery. wich are very dangerous. all i can say is that if you want to look pretty or handsome do it for your self, not because people judge you, not because people dosent like how you look like. because look... you are not gonna gain anything by doing so...

finally being pretty or handsome is a case to case basis, some people like you.. some people dont. depends on the taste right? dont feel bad people call you ugly or whatever... hell they care right?? just say "this bitch is one of a fucking kind! BOOYAH!" hehehe ^_^,,V they may rate you or call you stuff but it wouldnt make you less of a person right??

you will get old eventually.... you will loose it... but personality is long lasting even if your dead it will still remain...

^_^,,V

2009-01-06T01:36:00.001-08:00

woah!!!! hes all grown up!! OMG!!! strong baby is my favorite song right now!!!!! because im a strong baby now! hahah ^_^,,V hes my idol omg... the song is pretty good too.... argh i cant stop dancing to it ^o^

actually hes still young i think 19??? or 18??? not really sure... one of the reasons why i dont like my skin to whiten... hahah!! still cant believe hes grown up now!! hahaha hes a member from big bang by the way ^^ sweet aint it??? hehe

CRACK CRACK CRACK CRACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO LENG CHAI!!! HEHE

>_<,,!,,

2009-01-06T00:58:00.000-08:00

i went to work early about 1pm, because i was asked to come early obviously... as i was entering i saw someone using my desk and to my surprise it was a leng chai!!!!! hahaahah (did i use it right??? hahaha) also a teacher during mornings i was really shy to ask to get out of my desk because the leng chai was still using my computer.... well anyway.... im gonna have more of that leng chai.... hahaha!!! so there, today is a happy day for me because i dont have much work today!! plus i can go home early!! about 10pm ^^ so cool!!! PLUS!! i saw a very cute! leng chai! haha but i ddnt have time to go to the spa !!! argh!! so there...

awhile ago i was reading other peoples blog, i envy kevin hyung because he is close with his sister.. while me and my sister acts like cats and dogs.. actually i went over the bondary on our last fight.. i threw so many hurtfull words at her but she honestly desrves it... because if it wasnt for hermy brother would still be alive Y_Y.... anyway.. my familly's relationship right now is not stable.... everyones fighting sigh** my aunts and uncle is mad at their parents im mad with my sister my mom is angry at my fathers side...

EVERYTHINGS GOING SO CRAZY!!

good thing im still ok... i dont mind what theyre doing... as long as im working for myself and i can live on my own feet im good... actually we were raised to be a one man island.. my familly dosent really show emotion to each familly members its just how it goes... sad.. but what can i do...
ill just live my life happily ignoring the circumstances... good thing me and my cousins are close to each other so as my aunts and uncles,

that made me think offcourse im gonna have a familly in the future.. i want it to be a happy familly not like the one i have now... happy, worry free, safe familly.... sigh*anyway ive been saying sorry to my sister always in the past... but this time... SORRY is not gonna happen call it pride or whatever... but shes reall gone way too far...

hmm...

2009-01-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

its really so boring today... i was going through some blogs on my break while talking with shuiji while listening to strong baby by bigbang.
tomoow im going to the spa again! ^^ i love going to spas! it just feels like your a new person when you come out! hahaha... im pretty much vain in a sense that its for me and for my pleasure not for other people, but i dont mind flaunting hehehe, anyway..
ive been vacant without any relationship past few days i meen yea i had relationships but its like a trial thingy if we dont click then its goodbye, my longest relationship is 9months only.. EFFIINNNGGG BORRINNGGG!!!!

just watch this video from wonder girls! "nobody" i llluurrvvveee it! heehehe.......

smooth and sexy and oozzing hot the complete ingredients to make wonder girls! hehehe ^^

happy new year!

2009-01-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

well its kind of late to say happy new year to you guys! i really had fun this year though i had lots of struggles like that tragic thing that happend to my brother! i still cant get over it!!
sigh* i started the new year with a big bang! i was with my aunt and my cousins outside their house, its really a tradition here when its new year everyone has to buy fire crackers, well this new year my aunt bought alot! and i meen alot!!!!!!! hahaha also very very expensive fire works! but anyway its very beautifull! we ate turkey and lots of dishes also my autns famous kaldereta!! its the bessssttt!!! hehe while i was outside i came in and out of the house because i was chatting with the bloggers, they couldnt feel the excitement because its still early on their place, it was so nice chatting with them because thyre all so funny! hhahaha!!!
anyway im going to replicate what nicolas did heheh top 5's!!!

top 5 things that i accomplished this year

1. i managed a job and got it stable!
2. got myself on tv by singing!
3. i got closer to my family
members.
4. i bought most of the things i want
5. i became stronger and my personality became bolder

top 5 thing i wish didn't happen

1. my brothers passing away...
2. my biological father returning back HATE IT!
3. being in the call center industry!! full of sluts and whores everywhere! hate it!
4. wasting money ( i coulve saved you know! tsk tsk!!!)
5. wasting my chance on showbiz Y_Y.... no need to explain!

top 5 things i wish i did!

1. continued showbiz... ( tsk i got pissed because i only got 3rd so i stopped! )
2. saved more money! (i was gaining alot for myself but my savings is too low!!)
3. i stopped my brother going to palawan, so hes still with me... Y_Y
4. started a business
5. be alot more patient!

new years resolution!!!

1. SAVE SAVE SAVE SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. maintain my body figure
3. be a little bit nicer to my sister and my brother, lengthen my patience
4. by a new dog and treat it nicely ^_^,,V
5. learn more languages!!!! ^^

well i hope i get to do all these things! well its out with the old and in with the new! plus i got new friends! people who blog are really nice willy, shuiji, kevin! armanique! ad infinitum! incolas! thyre very nice ^^ i hope this year would be as fruitfull as ever! ^_^,,V

2008-12-29T23:22:00.000-08:00

last night we went to the mall it was about 7pm that time i was playing play station alone feeling so bored !! good thing my cousin jay jay wanted to go to the mall! i rushed to change my clothes and fix myself, i also asked my sister jd if she wanted to go with us... im really having a good time with my family nowadays unlike before that i usually say no to their invitations because i just dont feel like it, bt now its different, maybe because we grew even more closer to each other because of the incident.. so anyway we reached the mall and we had dinner i ate this huge California roast beef

yum yum!!

almost there!!

done ^_^!!!!

i was really hungry at that time! so i ate alot haha! anyway.. we planned to play at time zone, its like a game zone here in the philippines.. my cousin jayjay really likes playing the stacker game he spends huge amounts of money in this game haha!! just to win stuff toys?? talk about hobby >_>... hehe so anyway before played at time zone my sister needs to buy something i think its a gift for someone so anyway we were rushing because the four of us split, jayjay with his girlfriend tin went somewhere so i was with my sister... so anyway we were really walking fast so i was a little bit pissed because shes walking realllyyy fast!! but suddenly i forgot all about it because i saw someone, it was my ex before i cant say the name because its gonna be alot of controversy, ahahah i still like the person.. we just walked passed each other... i was so sad and depressed that time because i didnt have the guts to walk up and ask the number again! >_> actually my ex didnt notice me because it as years passed when we got together... but whatever! there are alot more good looking people than my ex so why sob right?? hahah... so we went up and i bought alot of silvanas!! yum yum!! im really enjoying it! you should try it ^^

so there we played at time zone

the lines go from left to right and you need to stack them up until it reaches the top so you can get the grand prize! its really hard because the lines go really fast! but its exciting ^^

anyway it was time to go home.. because were really tired but we passed by S and R to buy pizza for my cousin.. but tough luck we had to wait for 30 minutes sowe just bought donuts! ^_^

hehhe ^_^

time to go home... im not photogenic!!! huhuh i look so sleepy haha!!! =P

christmas updates!

2008-12-28T23:06:00.000-08:00

i started my christmas eve crying with my mom, we had plenty of food on the table and family relatives dropped by to enjoy christmas eve with us, my mom just couldnt help but cry, because of my late brother, i do too! i miss my brother so much! i still cry everyday because of his passing away.. anyway there's really nothing much else to do but accept the fact that hes gone now..

anyway...

i havent been blogging recently due to lack of time! you know, christmas season is always like this, ^_^ but even though its very busy i love it! i did last thursday december 25 up unitl monday today which is december 29 i had my christmas break from work! i actually did alot of things with my familly, let me start of with aqua land alley! we went there because my cousin kenjie needs to buy stuff for his salt water aquarium! i never thought of having an aquarium for salt water fishes are so damn expensive

this is in cartimar also, where filipino usually buy pets ^_^

some stores are closed because it was dec, 25 but we managed to buy the things my cousin needs.

cute puppy!!

it was really a whole lot of fun looking at the cute animals... bad thing that my crush's store is closed at this time.. huhuhuh Y_Y

after that we went to alabang town center one of my favorite malls here in the philippines! ( also one of the best chill spots here in laguna philippines! but serendra is my favorite! hehehe ) we went there to eat and buy stuff!! i really like going to the malls with my family hehe

at the center of atc "alabang town center"

christmas tree made out of teddy bears!!! cute!!

too bad the sale is over i saw these awsome shoes on the rack! i wanted to buy them so badly but they're so expensive! im gonna buy them next week! hehehe >=)

nice eeh!!! ^^

shoes for guys are so expensive... tsk tsk... ^_^ next wik im going to buy these 2!

we came across this silvanas store! and it tastes soooo heavenly!! i like sweets alot thats why i became a fan! i ate alot actually! hehe,i think your gonna like it cuz when you bite into it it just melts in your mouth! haha not that i havent tasted silvanas before but this particular store sells the best silvanas in the whole world! yum yum!! anyway i was trying to find new pairs of flip flops havaianas that time but some stores are closed, so we went straight to hush puppies then after that we went shopping for "etc" stuff hahah!!

ive seen a couple of cuties hahah!! there were alot of koreans this time, and all of them are sooooo cute!!! esp, those little kids! that are in a bunch walking together! sooo cute! heheh

time to go home we had so much fun if you wanna hang out with me give me a txt or a call!! hahah!! that is if im not working at that time

2008-12-23T04:57:00.000-08:00

its Christmas!!! hey guys! i wan to great you a happy christmas! and thanks for reading my blog... though im lacking time in making updates for my blog, im gonna try harder filling out the spaces ^^

anyway just this moring i was thinking about my diet and my body, my body is lean and its just ok, i keep on thinking about the future when i grow up i dont wanna be fat i dont want to sag, i just want it to stay like this, and then i realized im like dieting so hard without even me noticing that my weight is slowly decreasing and im turning into anorexic ive been eating just small portions as of the moment because i keep reminding myself im might loose my figure in the future.

breakfast

*orangejuice 1 glass
*melon 1 slice
*about 15 pieces of grapes

lunch

*2 pieces toasted bread and 1 slice of ham
*tofu
*orange juice

Dinner
*1 slice of tenderloin
*1 cup of rice
*red wine

the light is kinda dim at this time.... heheh

i go to the gym every other day just to get my abs working i dont want to look like the hulk! whos muscles is sooooooo not looking good, hahah i dont like it! it looks so disgusting i just want to be as is, i also dont eat in between meals, and i eat lots of fruits! heheh one more reason is that christmas and new year is coming in close the foods that time is very irresistible! like lechon! its a filipino dish it tastes sooo good

just to add in, i dont drink beer and i also dont smoke, i actually tried smoking but my goodness i got so dizzy i puked hahah!!! well merry christmas again guys!!! ^_^

2008-12-19T04:56:00.000-08:00

big bang fan cam shopping, big bang is really big! popularity! what would you feel? would you like it? being followed around? pictures everywhere?!? cameras everywhere. people screaming for you! lights and cameras are directed to you! it so fun right? but is it really true that sometimes stars like big bang feel a little bit trespassed? being "BIG" is really great! you can have all the things you want many people adore you! and people look up to you!

in my point of view even if its tiring i would still want to be in their shoes! people do stuff for you and treats you really nicely ^_^ well i just want to share that! hahaha

my question to ask you guys...

would you want to exchange your life now for them??

^_^

2008-12-16T04:46:00.000-08:00

me pretending to be scott summers from x men haha

im so tired its 9 in the evening now and i want to go home... but i have to stay here at work unitl 11 o'clock... it really stinx... tomorrow im planning to go to cartimar its a place here in the philippines filled with pets! different kinds of dogs and other animals im gonna buy a new puppy!! also im thinking whether it will be a siberian husky or a toy poodle!

heres a description of the toy poodle

Poodles are retrievers or gun dogs, and can still be seen in that role. The poodle's appearance made it popular as a circus dog and pet for the wealthy. The Fédération Cynologique Internationale lists the country of origin as France, but some experts believe poodles may have originated in Russia or Iberia; Germany is also frequently cited, including by the American Kennel Club, since the breed's English name has German origins[2]. (The name poodle comes from the German word pudel, short for pudelhund or "splashing dog", reflecting the breed's development from a water dog; the word pudel is related to the English word puddle.) However, most sources concur that the French are responsible for developing the modern breed into its current form, and developing the different sizes. The French name for the poodle is caniche, referring to ducks and the poodles' water dog origins.

Siberian Huskies share many outward similarities with the Alaskan Malamute as well as many other Spitz breeds such as the Samoyed, which has a comparable history to the Huskies. Siberians have a thicker coat than most other breeds of dog. They come in a variety of colors and patterns, usually with white paws and legs, facial markings, and tail tip. The most common colors are black and white, grey and white, copper-red and white, and pure white, though many individuals have blondish, or piebald spotting. Striking masks, spectacles, and other facial markings occur in wide variety. They tend to have a wolf-like appearance.

toy poodles are really cute but siberian huskies are cool!! hmm... having a pet really takes alot from you! you need to give them attention, feed them everyday! play with them!and walk them everyday! if you dont do all of these your dog will become like my patcha!! really scary dog!!hahaa he bites everyone who pisses him off i meen even getting close to him YIKES!!! and believe me he is really big!! hhaha ive tried doing everything but hes still the same... anyway theres this suppper cutie who sells puppies there he looks like korean and i think he owns the place... maybe ill be a little bit bitchy tommorow!! i hope hes bi! hahaha!!! after going to cartimar i think im going to the dermatologist because i want to have a diamond peel, its my vain day again tommorw! heheh.. also have a foot spa to relax my tired feet! you guys do the same!!! willy get some reeeessssttt!!!!!

big bang mania!

2008-12-15T04:51:00.000-08:00

theyre so good when it comes to dancing! and singing! and not to mention theyre so HOT too.. hehe so let me introduce them to you guys!!

G-Dragon (G-드래곤)

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Postion: Leader / Main Rapper
Real Name: Kwon Ji Yong (권지용)
Date of Birth: August,18,1988
Height: 177 cm
Weight: 58 kg
Blood Type: A
Education: Seoul Korean Traditional Arts Middle & High School
Skills: Rapping, Dancing, Beat Boxing, Composing, Singing, and Languages (Chinese, English)
Debut: DaeHanMinGook Hip Hop Flex (2001)
Hobbies: Drawing pictures and listening to music
Likes: Fashion, Acting, Cooking, Crispy Donuts, Dogs, Cars, The Drawing ‘Is it like stars or skeleton‘, books (poems, mangas, and magazines), watching cartoons, and himself
Religion: Christian
Family Members: Parents and Older Sis [Dami]
Personality: He is pretty bright…when he is quiet he is extremely quiet. He lightens the mood a lot. He leads the group. His senses are fast, has high self esteem and likes to be outstanding.
Pendent: A bball cap (GD’s favorite style of cap) on top of a star meaning “to become a big star in the music industry.”
GD's Pendent

Bio

G-Dragon initially started out as a child hip hop artist likely in hopes of emulation the popularity and success of Lil Romeo and Lil Bow Wow in the states. He too was also a model. However, he could not release an album and was limited to featuring on other YG artists’ albums. On January 2001, GD debuted on the compilation album Daehanmingook Hip-Hop Flex as a rapper. After his debut, he was recruited along with Tae Yang to act in JinuSean’s mv as mini JinuSean, which was released in February of the same year.

Then GD started training out his planned debut as one half of hip hop duo GDYB. During that time, he was featured on songs by Perry, Se7en, Wheesung, YG Family and Masta Wu. He also had cameos in many YG artists’s music videos and performed live with Swi.T, Lexy, JinuSean and YG Family. He also performed in concert with Wheesung, Gummy and Se7en and in YG Family’s annual One concerts. Out of everyone, GD was closest to YG and Perry, who thought him a lot, and his relationship with Hyun Suk was even described as “father and son”.

GDYB released 2 songs on YG Family’s second album, but never debut or released an album. In 2004, GD and Tae Yang were both listed as YG new faces and scheduled to debut that year. However, Hyun Suk announced that their debut was canceled in favor of forming a four-to-six member group. It took until 2006 for BIG BANG to be officially announced via The BIG BANG Documentary Reality Show. Meanwhile GDYB were featured in Se7en’s album and performed with him at the World Cup.

After graduating from high school, he decided to wait a year before applying to college, and took his college entrance exams in Fall 2007.

G-Dragon is BIG BANG’s leader. He is also a rapper and vocalist and has been producing with BIG BANG’s releases with the help of Hyun Suk since the beginning. He also wrote many of the lyrics and recently started songwriting and arranging.

Trivia

* has tattoos on his inner arms: right is “vita dolce” meaning sweet life in Italian and “moderato” on his left meaning moderate (a musical term) done on May 2007 by Carey Heart (husband of U.S. artist Pink) at famous tattoo parlor “Hart & Hurtington Tattoo Parlor” at Palms Casino in Las Vegas
* “G-Dragon” comes from his original name “Ji Yong”because Yong means “dragon” and Ji sounds just like a “G”
* Love it when people call him “Kwon Leader”
* Older Sis, Dami owns online clothing store called “Style Love” or “Style Luv” Website
* Lie was suppose to be GD’s solo because he wrote it, but in the end they decided to sing as a group
* GD childhood friend is KangIn from Super Junior
* GD’s most prized possesion and he grew a habit of orgnizing it all the time is his shoes hats clothes. The reason “Even though it’s only clothes, once you loose it, you can’t just buy it back.”

Collaborations

* [2001.09.04] Perry - Perry By Storm (Track 01. Storm (with Jinusean, Masta Wu) ; Track 08. G-Dragon)
* [2002.04.03] Wheesung - Like A Movie (Track 7. Magic Eye)
* [2002.10.xx] YG Family - Why Be Normal?
* [2003.03.07] Se7en - Just Listen (Track 1. Intro (with Perry)
* [2006.03.08] Se7en - 24/7 (Track 14. Run (with YBTK)
* [2006.11.02] Se7en - Vol.4 - SE7OLUTION (Track 7. Can You Feel Me)
* [2007.04.19] Lexy - Rush (Track 7. Super Fly (with 태양 and T.O.P)
* Perry MVs - Get ready & Storm
* 1TYM MV - Hot 뜨거
* Jinusean MV - 전화번호
* Masta Wu’s 1st album
* Was in YG family’s ONE concert
* Swi.T’s first album
* GD once said that he wanted to be like Teddy when he was older

Dae Sung (대성)

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Position: Vocalist
Real Name: Kang Dae Sung (강대성)
Stage Names: D-Lite, Delight
Date of Birth: April 26,1989
Height: 178 cm
Weight: 63 kg
Blood Type: O
Education: KyeongIn High School
Skills: Singing
Debut: BIG BANG
Likes: Rap, Beat Boxing,Cooling
Family: Parents and Older Sis [Bora]
Personality: Always bright. Does his best in everything. When he is around people, he lightens the mood. Loves goofing off and eating. Doesn’t like showing his sadness, known to be the “happy” one in the group
Musician He Admires: Usher, Omarion, Ne-Yo, Wheesung
Determination: “I’ll work my hardest and become the best.”
Pendent: A pair of headphones surrounding the globe of the world meaning “to let the world listen to your music.”

Bio

Dae Sung was recruited in an audition, and even though he was jokingly known as “unpretty boy” among the staff, he turned out to be the most popular members. During training, he got to do vocal training with Wheesung, who’s one of his favorite artists. Wheesung had also help other members from BIG BANG.

While training, he was diagnosed with vocal cord nodules (a mass of tissue that grows on the vocal cords causing human speech to be difficult), which are common among singers and caused by strains on the vocal cords. They got worse in fall of 2006 and DS had to undergo treatment soon before the release of BIG BANG’s second single. Thankfully, Gummy, who had experienced the same problem, helped Dae Sung recover and manage his condition. They’ve been friends ever since. Gummy was the one who said “hello” in Korean in the Lie MV.

In April 2007, Dae Sung decided to quit high school to be able to focus full-time on Big Bang, but expressed a desire to pass his college entrance exams sometime in the future.

In October 2007, Dae Sung was featured in singer Nemo’s “Ije, Oori…” (이제,우리..) [Now We] digital single. This was the first M-Boat/YG collaboration since the split of their partnership some months earlier.

Trivia

* huge obsession with Japanese cartoon character, Doraemon and has many Doraemon items from charms to boxers to chopsticks
* before was called ugly but now has become one of the popular members of the group
* known as a comedy genius for his imitations, sense of humor and puns.
* If DS wasn’t a singer or performer, he would be studying for college entrance exams/a student, a baseball player or a pastor.

Collaborations

* featured in singer Nemo’s “Ije, Oori…” (이제,우리..) [Now We] digital single

TOP

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Position: Rapper / Beat Boxer
Real Name: Choi Seung Hyun (최승현)
Stage Names: Tempo, T.O.P
Date of Birth: November 4,1987
Height: 181 cm
Weight: 65 kg
Blood Type: B
Education: Seoul Art College (Majoring in Musical), Dangook University in Theater & Film ( starting 2008 )
Skills: Rapping, Beat Boxing, Lyrics Making
Debut: BIG BANG
Hobbies: Reading and Swimming
Likes: Theatrical Performances, Musicals, and Fashion Designing
Family Members: Parents & Older Sis
Personality: He speaks well and is extremely stubborn. He likes to be the leader of things and speaks his mind. Shy and he thinks he’s cute.
Musician He Admires: Usher, Omarion, Jay-Z, B2K
Pendent: A hand holding a megaphone with a Superman style diamond behind it meaning “to inspire people with his voice and become big”

Bio

Even though BIG BANG is listed as his debut, TOP has been rapping since middle school under the name Tempo. He started doing gigs in underground clubs, sometimes with an older friend of his, NBK Gray. They never sign a label or released an album. “Buckwild”, one of their songs was storming the internet in mp3 format.

Unlike the rest of Big Bang, TOP hasn’t trained to be a singer. His only singing part so far is at the beginning of She Can’t Get Enough.

He often gets sent on TV shows alone, either as a guest or MC. In August 2007, he started acting in the drama I Am Sam. In summer 2007, he was also featured as an actor in Red Roc’s Hello MV.

Trivia

* voted #41 on MNET’s 2007’s 100 Must Haves
* oldest member of BIG BANG
* sleeps wearing a lot of clothing
* first to appear on TV show on his own (Happy Share Company)
* played a major role in Korean Drama “I Am Sam”
* has a very pink bedroom (?)
* performed at club in Gangnam 2002~2005
* KBS we like radio. Won rap battle 2003.
* performed with STARZ 2004
* famous korean singer “SE7EN” chose the name T.O.P
* In Love Letter with Gummy, both Gummy and TOP have the same nickname: Siberian Husky.
* both Gummy and TOP were noted as “Exercising Owls” in an article for exercising very late at night

Collaborations

* [2007.04.19] Lexy - Rush (Track 7. Super Fly (with 태양 and G.Dragon)
* [2007.07.12] Red Roc music video “Hello”
* [2007.08.06] I’m Sam drama as Chae Moo Shin

Seung Ri (승리)
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Position: Vocalist
Real Name: Lee Seung Hyun (이승현)
Stage Name : Seung Ri (승리); V.I
Date of Birth: December 12, 1990
Height: 176 cm
Weight: 60 kg
Bloodtype: A
Skills: Singing, Dancing
Debut: BIG BANG
Likes: Foreign Languages
Family: Parents and younger sibling
Personality: very strong for the youngest member in the group. He is pretty mature because blood type is A. He is shy and keeps lots of things to himself.
Musician He Admires: Justin Timberlake, Omarion
Determination: fighting! i cannot return home
Pendent: A planet surrounded by rings. Looks kind of like Saturn.
“a new style of music set on the music industry”

Bio

Seung Ri is from Kwangjoo, the sixth major city in Korea. As we can see in the Big Bang
Documentary, it’s quite a long commute between the two. Before Big Bang, he was a member of Ilhwan, a Kwangjoo dance team.

In summer 2005, Seung Ri appeared on an episode of Battle Shinhwa, a TV show to find the second Shinhwa (a famous boyband) through auditions. The band Battle is the result of that TV show. In the thirteenth episode, he was cut because his singing wasn’t impressive enough, even though his dancing was.

Trivia

* youngest of the group
* fought against So-1 (former member) to stay in group
* shares a bedroom with DS in new apartment
* Had to put up with GD hugging him at night in old apartment
* sometimes called Panda or Baby Panda due to the dark circles under his eyes
* apart of M. Net Battle of Shinwa June~August 2005
* was in Kwandju dance team “II Hwa”
* had photos of himself and his ex-gf shown during a skit on the REAL concert DVD
* Favorite song to karaoke to is “Look at the Photo [Vibe]“
* SR’s highest score in high school was 85%
* SR’s highest in middle school was 81%
* the nickname that the members gave SR because he would always killed the mood was “Mek Ggeun (Mood Killer)”

Tae Yang (태양)
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Position: Vocalist
Real Name: Dong Yong Bae (동영배)
Stage Names: Tae Yang, YB Tae Kwon, YBTK
Date of Birth: May 18, 1988
Height: 174 cm
Weight: 56 kg
Blood Type: AB
Education: Daejin University in Theater & Film ( starting in 2008 )
Skills: Rapping, Dancing,Beatboxing, Singing, Languages (English, Japanese)
Debut: YG Family’s Second Album in 2002
Hobbies: Basketball, Music, Watching TV
Likes: Church, Summer, Clothers, Game, Manhwa
Religion: Christian
Family Members: Parents and Older brother (Dong Hyeon-Bae 동현배)
Personality: Does his best in everything. Over achiever. Doesn’t like to fight. He talks about his problem with his opponent. He listens to you well and thinks about what he is going to say before he says anything.
Musicians he admires: Usher, Omarion, Justin Timberlake
Pendant: A sun (taeyang is korean for ’sun’) which has a crown on top and “YB” in the middle meaning “to become the best in music industry
YB Pendant
Bio
Taeyang was a child actor starting in 5th grade. He was recruited to play the part of mini Sean in JinuSean’s A-Yo MV. After that, he auditioned to join YG Family, having been impressed by JinuSean. His chosen stage name was YB Taekwon, which is either a reference to JinuSean’s Taekwon V album or to the giant robot Taekwon V.

His rapping debut was in YG Family’s second album in 2002. In 2003, he participated in Wheesung’s second album, rapping on the track Player. He performed with JinuSean, Swi.T, Lexy, Masta Wu, Se7en and YG Family, and took part in Wheesung, Gummy, Se7en and YG Family’s One concerts.

He was scheduled to debut with G-Dragon as GDYB (for G-Dragon & YB Taekwon) in 2004, but never debuted or released an album. Hyun Suk announced that their debut was canceled in favor of forming a four-to-six-member group.

Even though he’d previously trained to be a rapper and wanted to become one, he debuted in Big Bang as a singer. He’s been studying Japanese for three years, since 2004, in preparation for Big Bang’s Japanese debut. After graduating high school, he and G-Dragon decided to take a year off before applying for college. He has been accepted at Daejin University in theater and film for 2008, and has mentioned wanting to become an actor.

His first kiss was during the filming of the Ma Girl music video, when the actress got carried away and kissed him for real.

Hyun Suk mentioned in his messages that Taeyang was going to have a solo single, as a reward for hard work and to make up for being too harsh with Taeyang. It was tentatively scheduled for September 2007, but it hasn’t been released yet.

Trivia

* Before BIG BANG was formed, Tae Yand and fellow bandmate G-Dragon were known as “G-Dragon & YB Tae Kwon.” They have performed as a duo at concerts such as ‘Se7en’s’. First SE7EN as rappers and backup dancers.
* been with YG for many years
* received first kiss while filming “Ma Girl” MV
* first appeared in A-Yo MV as younger version of JinuSean
* “papa” of the group (gets them to talk about their problems)
* in 5th grade took acting class
* audition for JinuSean’s MV
* audition for YG after meeting JinuSean
* YB carries a bible that reflects his religious beliefs
* Favorite song to karaoke to is “Incomplete”
* When TY called the members during his “Ma Girl” MV shooting, he said “HYUNGS! I’m dead! I kissed a girl!”
* TY’s most prized possesion is his piano because his mom bought it for him which inspired him to played the piano and love music
* YB once sported an eye brow ring. Eye Brow Ring can be seen during the documentary & first single era

final destination

2008-12-15T04:38:00.000-08:00

this is were my brother drowned... now alot of people have been telling us that "SOMETHING" not human is actually guarding this place like "fallen angels" do you believe in those kinds of shit?? well people tried explaining it to me, that before all of the people came to this earth, people who followed satan was cast down here in the earth before we all came, so that means that there are really demons and fallen angels around. im actually having mixed emotions about this. it makes me want to destroy nature!!! grrrr... if ever i fly there in palawan and see that fucked up waterfall.im going to destroy it with my own hands! i hate it! grrrr.. actually nowadays im so cranky, i shout at my subordinates, i get angry really fast, and i usually like everything to be perfect! i dont know whats happening to me... it feels like im blaming the whole world!

anyway im trying to psyche my self out.... and all of these HOOHAS!! are really pissing me off... Y_Y

also my love life is abit low right now. everyone who texts me msgs me, and calls me i ignore them im really not in the mood, i dont know how long this is going to be like this but i hope i can move on, i mean its not easy, but ill try..

moving back to the subject, do you honestly believe in these things?

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2008-12-11T22:32:00.000-08:00

things are turning out well.. i returned to work last Tuesday and it went OK, it was very tiring though it was just fine because i wanted that, i wanted to be busy so much that i couldnt even stop and think about what happened these past few days, well i think its kinda working! ^_^ but sometimes it still haunts me like when i close my eyes i see my brothers smile, i think about how we used to tease each other.. i call him pizza face! and he calls me names too... its really ironic how things happen! is like my life is one whole T.V series! well its starting to!! i never imagined it would be like this.. now i know how it feels like to be in their position! just remember what i told you guys! CHERISH EVERY MOMENT!!! you dont know when god will take your loved ones away...

tomorrow is Saturday and i have alot of things to do, like go to the laundromat fix my things because its all scattered! and off course go to the mall with my cousins were going to watch "the day the earth stood still" i think it a pretty good movie! because i like those sci-fi thrillers! like war of the worlds etc!

i bet were gonna have so much fun! i need to relax because of what has been happening. anyway, im also planning to buy a new pet husky! i actually have a pet husky right now but i really dont know whats happening to him! because he just keeps on bitting everyone he sees! my brother kyle was bitten just this morning so we had to take him to the hospital to take shots. i actually wanted to send "patcha" to the dog pound but chales (my brother who died) really loves patcha, so my mom didnt agree to send him, so im planning to buy another one! maybe hes just cranky because he dosent have any other dogs to play with, because also us, were all so busy with work!

im really looking forward on saturday!! my relax day!!! hehe....

Life and Death

2008-12-09T22:37:00.000-08:00

life.. it gives us the chance to do change things... it gives us time to do the right things within a certain period of time, that's how i see life.
right now i want to do everything i haven't done before i also want to correct the mistakes that ive done in the past, life gives me the opportunity to do all these, life gives you the chance to learn for yourself! it gives you the ability to experience life it self!

death is completely the opposite, it makes decisions for you! whether you like it or not! death dosent give you any choices. it also make things happen! for example my mother side dosent talk much with my father side, but in this case my brother died we all united as one! death makes you realize a lot of things it actually forces you to realize, and act even if you don't like it

its not easy facing death.. i haven't gotten over it yet, but im trying my hardest! please... cherish the people that are close to you and always remind them that you love them so that you wouldn't regret it! my brother is so quiet and sometimes we take him for granted but at least i showed him that i love him.. do the same...

sad.....................

life must go on

2008-12-08T23:40:00.000-08:00

life must go on... im here at work its already 3:00 pm... past few days was really hard for me and my familly... yesterday was my brothers interment.... i just have to take it in though its really hard, there are alot of new changes in my life. like my temper now is really really short, i scold people whenever i get the chance to. i yell, and get angry really fast. i want everything to be in order. i get really nervous all the time, and alot more... even my love life has changed! i dont care right now about people. only for my familly and my closest friends..

interment

i just slept for around 4 hours becaue i havent been sleeping because i need to cater the people who has been going to our house... on charles's necrological service alot of people came some of my couzins gave speaches and charles close friends, we all bursted into tears while giving our messages o charles. me and my cousin kenjie made 3 videos for charles... people cried throught the entire video... alot of people came we gave out refreshemnts and foods, all of the people there are in their deepest sorrow.. me my cousins and my close friends stayed up until 6am in the moring. because at 1pm that afternoon we will put charles in his final resting place...

1pm..

my familly wore v neck white t shirts, there are alot of cars ready for the convoy the numbers were about 30 cars!! i was shocked, many people came. also we had 3 transportation vehicales for the people who doesnt have any automobiles, we put white baloons on the wind sheilds of the cars when they were about to put charles inside the car. i ran as fast as i could.... and looked at him, i kissed his coffin and let them take it away... i was crying the whole time.. when the convoy was about to move i went inside my aunts car with my mom who was just sitting there still crying... the convoy was really moving slow then suddenly the song started

"keep your eyes wide open" from the movie bridge to terabithia

thats his favorite movie and song...

i quickly said open the windows! i want to listen to the song!

so we were trailing the car where my brothers coffin is.. i was crying but good thing i stopped...
the songs were ironically made exactly for my mom! so it was time for us to put charles on his final resting place. they placed him infront of the people so i went infront. there were children who were also trying to squeeze their way to hav a look. i was so pissed that time because they were so noisy! i looked at one kid and stared at him with devil eyes!!! one more and im going to kick their asses to the grave..
as i was looking at them putting charles under the ground my heart melted because knowing that THATS my brother! and i was with him just last week!!! now hes under the ground 6 feet under... it realy pains me to see him like that.. but i know that hes just here somewhere looking at me and my familly.. so the interment ended and we all bid our goodbyes...

we went to super bowl after we ate dinned there at festival mall...
i was with my mother side and it went ok... i ate alot because i havent been eating since the incident happend im was also sad ebcause if that didnt happen my brother would have been with us eating and laughing... fuck whenever i think about this my head wants to explode and i want to burst into tears again!!!! Y_Y........ i miss him so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please help me recover Y_Y charles i miss you....

these are the videos me and my cousin made.... we all cried so hard when we watched this... the music was in his favorite movie "Bridge to Terabithia" this was shown on his necrologial services.... Y_Y

we miss you charles so much!! see you in heaven! Y_Y

Venus, Jupiter. and the Moon

2008-12-03T06:46:00.001-08:00

when my brother passed away this December 1 the heavens sent out a smile... for us it symbolizes that charles is happy where he is now... its very rare to have this kind of event.. god really loves him..
charles did so many wonderful things to my familly he acted so mature during his days alive... there are alot of stories about him that really made me cry. he was very valliant in every way!

here are some

when we didnt have money he told my mom

" mom my friend is going to work pull out some grass along the neighborhood... maybe i can join him pull grass so i can earn some money"

Red Cross went to their school asking them for insurance so if they die they will receive money he said ----

"its ok for me to die right now if i have this insurance, because my family really needs the money right now"

i always see him eat just fried rice frequently when we ddnt have the money before

he cooks, wash the dishes, walk the dog, wash clothes, take care of my mom, clean the house... he did all these things without him whining... he really wanted to help!

before he left for palawan he gave his best friend carl a old used cell phone. because he was not selfish...

he gives me anything i wanted...

HE DID ALL THIS AND MANY MORE! we were all shocked because we knew he was good.. but he surpassed it! he was a HERO! at the age of fifteen! he did all this!!!! when we were in financial crisis... he never whined about us having no money! he tried to find ways that he can earn money for the family he is just 15!!!!! very young to be thingking like this...

the cause of death was actually unknown when they saw his body it has no water inside his body.. no fracture... no bumps or bruises... just a chip on his lips.... so the cause was really unknown.. maybe its really his time! because there are signs earlier.. i remembered when i was a kid maybe 13 and he is still a little boy... i had a dream... i saw a boy lying inside a coffin dead with his lips chipped.. and i knew it was him... its a premonition i was still i child then.

charles i love you so much... your my baby brother, though we dont let our emotions be seen you know and i know that we love each other! on sunday i will let you go now.. i love you so much... and i will never ever forget you..

my brother charles and my sister jd

i love you.. you are a hero...... there are alot of things you did great i love you!

charles....

2008-12-01T15:37:00.000-08:00

...... yesterday was a tragic day for my familly. my brother just died this morning hes just 15 years old, i dont know how to deal with it yesterday everyone was all crying. the news came to us about 1pm in the afternoon.. i was listening to my mp3. my mom was doing something inside her room and my grandfater is watching the television. then suddenly my grandmother and uncle came back home... my uncle looks like hes cried alot. so i was nervous my grandma said to call everyone so my nervousnes elivated. ='( then the said the bad news my brother died because of drowning... so my mom broke down to tears and kept on screaming CHARLES CHARLES... i was also crying yesterday the whole day... after a few minutes and i was calm my grand father told me to go to my relatives place my father side. so i went there. i said the bad news and they got devastated! my brother was so young Y_Y i txted neil and he also cried so hard... my mom is still crying this morning i woke up. i slept beside her. to give her strength. what i want to do is to show them that im not crying and im strong to strengthen them to move on... but my heart keeps on crying and i cant help it!!! whenever i talk to my mom and see her crying i cant help but burst into tears.... im like a walking baloon waiting to explode..
it very hard when you loose someone who you see everyday, who lives with you, who talks with you specially when its your familly memeber. maybe this after noon they will arive from palawan and i cant really imagine what chaos will happen later on! my mom still keeps on crying

charles why did you leave me
charles....

i cant help but cry but i need to be strong! for my familly! my brother is a nice boy! i admit that im not as good as my brother, hes the best one here! and everyone knows that... my chest feels like its going to explode now! and my eyes wants to pop out.. i lvoe my brother! offcourse hes my brother! but i still cant imagine what will happen later when he arrives in a cofffin my heart is so fool with anger, pain everything!! hes so young. he has so many plans! but god took him... i keep on doing positive thinking... but its still hard! i want to work! work work!! but my mother needs me shes in pain... everyone is. this is going to be one hard year for us..... Y_Y

charles n. retuya 1997 - 2008........

2008-11-30T03:37:00.000-08:00

IM SOOO HAPPY! hahaha!!!! ^_________________________________^,,V

2008-11-28T02:43:00.000-08:00

i woke up at around 11 am, every time i wake up the first thing i do is check my mobile phone to check the time and if i have any messages.. i had 40 messages in my inbox and comming from diffrent people, ive been having alot of messages lately becasue it was stupid of me to post it on some website when i was bored... hahah... anyway so its was like the usual people wanted to have sex.. friends... ect.. but theres this person who messaged me, he was the one i talked to last night and asked to realod my phone, i ddnt know that he was bi or whatever, but still he also caught my eye last night but it ddnt even bothered me.

"are you the one who loaded last night? wearing blur striped sweat shirt? at around 12 mn."
"yep who's this?"
"the one who loaded your phone.."
"please txt me"
"ahh aryte.. that was you, what's up?"
"yupp its me.. sorry if i like you so much its just that you look so cute."

so the conversation went on.. so hes 23 years old havent gone to college yet and he works from 10 pm to 7am at the mini stop store near my place... he also lived near our place but i never saw him before and he also hasnt seen me.
he consistently told me that he wants to see me again.. but i got soo lazy to even think about it! haha.. i think hes alright but.. he hasnt started college yet but i think hes a hard worker well as they say love cant feed you when your straving but well see... hes nice though, i remember walking inside the store looking for the person supposed to be in the counter, and there i saw him sitting eating ice cream... soooo cute!! hahah! so there we finshed texting about 2pm because i had to sleep... i woke up again around 4pm so i was getting ready to go to work.. i saw my sister and her boyfriend getting ready also... theyre going to the temple, and watch twilight

its a very very good movie all of my friends and familly liked it when they saw it... it was about a vampire loving a mortal... the vampire was vegitarian so obviously they dont want to eat meat! haha its sounds funny but its cool! and the guy there is kinda cute too hehehe ^_^,,V anyway it comes from a famous novel wich i think will fair against harry potter, its really romantic once you see the trailer ive seen the trailer though makes me want to watch it right away its really nice when you get to watch it with someone you really like, as for me im very picky when it comes to a lover i want it to be picture perfect, ive been reading willy's blog and i think its so perfect!! him and his hubby!! so cute!! well i want it to be just like them! everythigns so perfect even the sex! they look good together ^_^ go go go go willy!!! haha
tomorows plans!!! go to the salon and have a facial!!! and watch twilight!! and go swimming!! haha ^_^...

Vanity or Insanity??

2008-11-27T03:43:00.000-08:00

i was drinking water for the rest of the day.. i read a couple of times that you can have clearer skin if you drink water everyday.. well not that i have bad skin and all.. i just want to feel that what im doing to myself is right and it promotes nice skin... ^_^ so here i am in the office drinking more water haha... i also came across some friendster profiles with some cool hair styles... well i really wanted to have one of those but these DAMN SALONS dont know how to do it... because just monday i got another new haircut thoguh its not that bad its just that its not the one that i instructed to the one who cuts my hair... i was a little bit disapointed because i was looking forward to better cut because i tried that salon before and it did well... but this time its just so-so... haha so i cant wait to row my hair back.. people tell me i look better with my hair long.. korean style!!

big bang~ hair styles are so cooooll also the style

ive been adicted to korean styles lately.. my clothes are korean inspired also the music that i listen to! i think koreans are really cool... for me its better than western style... asians ROCK!!!! filipino style... uhhh never mind... hahaha its so boring!!! thats my point of view though
anyways what i think about vanity nowadays is that its a trend now thatyou must be goodlooking.. you have to have nice hair.. you have to have nice skin also the way you dress.. but i have two things in mind about this issue...

1. being good looking is within a persons point of view
2. you cant please every one

so try pleasing every1 itll drive you INSANE.. haha well ive been to this phase before and im learning to delete it from my system.. for example. if a person dosent dig me at all... ill feel really really bad and curse the person haha... anyway but these 2 things which i stated above really helped me, well i know alot of people who are really adicted to making themselves perfect.. like they buy alot of products that are really expensive just for vanity its really stupid, it might sometimes make your downfall like what i saw a couple of days ago i saw this gay person his nose is obviously lifted though its higher it looks like its an orc's nose.. hahaha... imagine he saves up money just for that opperation and leaves him looking like a fool... anyway i myself is a victim!! haha i looove being loved so maybe thats the thing that keeps me from being vain but in a safe way ^_^....

2008-11-26T06:37:00.000-08:00

well im about to end my class...i was reading willys blog... in its wwwoooaahh hot... hahaha ^_^ anyway later when i get home well be having a guest for about a month.. its my sisters boyfriend wel.. i realyl dont know how to react about this when i get home... by the way its around 11:00pm now so... when i get home i would be seing them... i mean we quarell everyday we shout and me and my brothers often say bad words... hahah.... so i think this would really be a challenge for us..
so just wish me luck ^________^,,V anyong!!!!! hehe its another day ending... wish me luck tommorw!!!!

work work.. as the old orc says..

2008-11-26T03:42:00.000-08:00

i just got a break from teaching with andrew... hes my korean student, hes actually my sisters student but my sisters on vacation for a month so ill be budging in for her.. anyway im going to start my other class with jason in about 15 mins... this job is soo easy... i mean i just need to talk to koreans and teach really basic english.. isnt it GREAT!? hahaha... so there.. after me working here for i think a month ill be going to fontana and be teaching koreans again face to face hehe.. well im excited about that one but its not really that sure because ms.christy "i think" has issues.... but im really looking forward to it....

before this job i was a call center agent for infonxx... which i think is just full o' shit... its so damn tiring! well all jobs are.. but call centers are so full of it!!! and my co agents there are also shit full!! thats why i had no egrets leaving that company.. well im happy with my current work right now.. its like a walk in the park!! see i can even blog now!! great?? yeah i know!! haha... though i thought i can meet cute koreans here Y_Y... sadly theres none... hhaha...